Jax Alan Rogers turned 2 at the beginning of last month. I wanted to dedicate this post to him, to the wonderful little person he is becoming. I also wanted to dedicate this post to him before all the hype and talk of another child entering our little family. I feel as thought I barely have the time or brain power to put a sentence together anymore. There was a time my pen hit the paper everyday. I do want to write more, to put into words my thoughts and feelings, but sometimes (and more often than I care to admit), they are not so pretty. I know I need to change that. I know that being a mom to a toddler is challenging. Being a mom period is challenging. With any challenge I have ever faced in life, there are many rewards. And let me tell you…there are many, many rewards being Jax’s mommy. I love every inch of his face…his beautiful and long lashes, golden brown eyes, full pink lips, curly and wild hair. I love how he loves to read and thirsts for learning new things…which is daily. I love playing hide and seek with him, going to the park, watching trains with him. I love when he holds my hand and calls me “mommy.” I love how he snuggles up to all his little stuffed animals when he naps. I love reading him books every night. I love the way he jumps in his crib in the morning. He truly is our little sunshine, even through the ups and downs, tantrums, and challenges. I am so very thankful God chose me to be a mom to this little man.
One night, through fighting sleep and exhaustion, I put my pen to my paper.
To Tracy and Jax…
“arms wrapped tight, hand held always, rocking and cuddling with the warmth of your hair around my face. Watching you skip and trot, dancing in the kitchen, calling “come find me,” your sweet smile surrounds me, as he surrounds both of us with his smiling gaze.”